What Is A Miracle?

A miracle is bringing two strangers together at the exact moment in which the woman/child conceives a baby with the exact DNA to create a perfect child.

A miracle is a frightened woman/child learning she is pregnant, refusing an abortion for the only reason being that it is a sin.

A miracle is a loving but abusive man to marry and care for the woman/child and her unborn illegitimate child and claiming it as his own.

A miracle is a mother being anesthetized during childbirth and the child being placed in an incubator without ever being held in her mothers arms.

A miracle is a child being born 3 months premature when the parents are told the child would never live.

A miracle is the parents returning to life without an unwanted child, only to have the child come home after 45 days.

A miracle is a child coming home to a loving but bitter Grandmother as caretaker while her mother went back to high school and held a full time job.

A miracle is a child having a doting father and a neglectful mother.

A miracle is losing her beloved Grandmother and learning that her father was not her biological father and now the father becoming estranged.

A miracle is spending years wondering what was wrong with her, why her mother resent her so, how her mother could love her brother so full heartedly and neglect her so, always asking the eternal why?

A miracle is receiving material gifts as a means of buying love by her mother.

A miracle is being molested by her Grandfather, being raped, being abused by her mother, by boyfriends; having no self-esteem, no self-worth, no self-confidence; never learning the concept of self-love.

A miracle is dedicating herself to helping others because she most desperately needed help.

A miracle is learning to be totally independent and self-reliant since there was never really anyone she could depend on.

A miracle is being suicidal, manic-depressed, co-dependant, self-destructive to the point of mini-breakdowns several times a year but always stopping just short of getting it over with.

A miracle is waking one early September morning from a dream and calling her mother only to have the dream of her conception during date-rape confirmed.

A miracle is being totally devastated to learn that her mother really did resent her and for good reason.

A miracle is awakening to the realization that God works in mysterious ways, even through rape and violence; that a child could live, survive and thrive through all the heartache and pain.

A miracle is realizing that only God could have directed the bizarre events, coincidences and decisions of her life.

A miracle is accepting her parents as they are, realizing that they did the only thing they could have done, the only thing they were capable of doing.

A miracle is understanding her mother as she is rather than work to have her mother understand her.

A miracle is changing her own perceptions to more accepting of gifts from her mother as the only way possible of expressing affection rather than as acts of manipulation.

A miracle is a loving, forgiving and accepting relationship between her and her mother.

A miracle is a more respectful, loving confident relationship with herself.

A miracle is a loving, respectful confident relationship with a kind soul who teaches interdependence, faith, hope, courage, strength, love.

A miracle is learning the lessons of losing loved ones and how precious each moment is.

A miracle is being given the gift of empathy and helping others who are suicidal, manic-depressed, co-dependant, self destructive; those who have been molested, raped, abused; who have no self-esteem, self worth, self condfidence, self-love.

A miracle is being thankful for all the trials and tribulations.

What is a miracle?

I AM A MIRACLE.

Copyright © 2002 by Shawn Murray